3 posts tagged “dad”
Taken from 'the onion dome" ...With my Dad's recent death, this really touched me ... thank you.
The pain of suffering is such a great mystery. But within this mystery is a great gift. In our fallen state we are divided and our minds race off in a countless number of directions. Even at prayer, when we should be focused on God, we constantly struggle to quiet our minds and are unable to allow them to descend into our hearts. But when we suffer, the mind centers on the pain of our heart and it is there that we encounter God. When we’re in the midst of pain we are single-minded and all the distractions that seemed so important evaporate into the nothingness that they truly are.
(1938-2007)
I know he is at peace! He shouted out a few times this week that he "wanted to go home" ... he is now.
I am at a loss of words. I can't sleep, and it is the middle of the night. Dad just passed away at 12:50am EST this morning. He fought a very courageous fight for nearly 9 years. I will head to be with my Mom this week. If you could say some prayers for her ... she needs them now.
I get like this after every vacation we take. I guess it is like coming down from an amazing high (not that I would really know, but I would imagine). I miss my family ... the ones who truly care about me. I am also going through a really tough time right now. My Dad is dying - slowly, but surely. He is officially off of chemo (has been for nearly 7 weeks). I am not sure how many people have witnessed a loved one suffer so much. It is heartbreaking beyond thoughts or words.
So I am sad, and lonely right now. Wishing for friends who are more than just acquaintances. It just seems that my life is not blessed with that. Moving around a bunch will do that. I just need an ear that will listen and say I am sorry ... that I will be here for you. I am not about to tell people that I haven't seen or spoken to in a while my woes. So I write it down here(blog) and just let my thoughts be out there. Maybe some stranger will say a prayer.